The angel entered covered up as all bad angels do. Disjointed thoughts in spider webs, so no one understood. Came he swiftly in the form of rapid movements and times, carrying life’s nothing’s, rhythms or what should really rhyme. Came he all of confusion, bringing violence in his name, possessed he the soul of the innocent to destroy and to maim. Oh, my son you are the victim of a cruel unusual joke, played upon your gentle feelings, your mind gone when you awoke. Came the fire of rapid synapses, over running neurons spokes, and your defenses fell a writhing, when the demon in pictures spoke. Showed upon the canvas of the inner child in you. A world that is burning, dragons, while reality spins from view. Human beings pulled apart, while monsters call your name, faster spinning thoughts they come, while the doctors diagnose blame.
Oh, my precious son, I’m helpless to mend your screams and cries, even Adonai, has left me, left me only here dried eyed. I look into your mother’s eyes as she holds you in your pain, the resolution repeated loud in safe there is a way. We repeat it through the path of broken thoughts and nightmare weaves. We keep you in our arms at night as the fear refuses to leave. The motion of a moving shadow seems to bring such terror, such cold. G_D my G_D you are so quiet, have you gone away, all we hear are platitudes from Facebook people who play their silly games. I thought by now, you’d come on down in roaring promised rage, delete the noun of madness sounds, and help us face this day.
Well my son, my precious son, the promise seems delayed, another day in Hade’s tomb, while madness has her way. Nothing really matters now, for what is lost was never found, we reach the place of no sound, but whispers we have to say, “safe and sound”, our love, “safe and sound”, today.
A dawn it comes as November’s sun, and your mother’s eyes look my way, the tears they pour like a river draining from a storm-filled lake. Somewhere in this broken house, within this finite place, a power of one is seeking how; in truth, we find the way. Safe and sound is the gift now found, from what we cannot pray. In this moment, quietness comes, and in the silence plays, oh my son, my precious son, you are okay. Above me whispers a voice, I am the same, in all silence, I am the same, safe and sound still here today! Still here today!
The angel took a quieter exit, covered, as all bad angels do! – 11.12.2017 – דָּנִיֵּאל
For My beautiful son who fulfills the covenant!
Oh Daniel is this your sweet son you write of, how beautiful and heartbreaking, how victorious. I pray for you and your sweet wife, what a wonderful family you are! This was victory, Daniel. This was victory! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Hi Ruby, I love your comment. Thank you so much for your encouraging words. It is my dear son and wife I write of. Wishing you the best of the week ahead. Daniel
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Thank you Daniel, I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. ❤
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First I cried, then I cried again, then I realized you and your wonderful family were safe and sound. You truly write from the soul. Unbelievable Daniel! ❤
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Thank you Heather, your comment is truly appreciated. Yes we safe and sound, as are you.
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I am so happy to hear this! Thank you for the vote of confidence as well. 😉
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Fabulous, Daniel… but I need to read again to understand fully your son and the delay.
Nonetheless, your poetry delivers me, and shallowly I say… I saw a fabric black it was, though effervescent in every way. I think for Susan, it should/could play, with one colour.
Still 2 Art Gowns away, what do you say?
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I like it dear friend, and I think Ms. Susan will too! 🙂
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I’ve a few questions for her as we near this Whitby Lady’s gown. There is no emoji that expresses my smile right now.
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Okay perhaps we need to set up a phone call. 🙂
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Yes, eventually! How exciting! ❤ Hello Susan!
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Daniel, I read again your words. Is/was your son in the army? Or where has he gone? Well, all my best wishes, for what I don’t understand and can’t explain.
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Hi Resa, Ryan is on the autism spectrum and at times his mind with it’s ever higher IQ see’s unbelievable horrors and madness. At times it is too much, but when he comes back to us, he is beautifully resurrected, reaching for places, those of us like myself so common only wish we could go. I will tell you more in a more discreet forum, IE: email 😉
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I am interested! I await whatever you want to say. Much love to all your family! ❤
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This is beautiful Daniel, much respect your way, Jane ❤
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Thank you Jane. I appreciate you reading and commenting and your kind thoughts my way.
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Your welcome! 🙂
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Thank you very much Carla. ☺
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Such tenderness and beauty expressed here Daniel. A wonderful touching sentiment. My best to you and your sweet family.
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Thank you Sharon, I appreciate your comment and thinking of my family and I. Best wishes your way for the week.
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Your welcome, sending good thoughts your way for a great week as well.
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Your words are like a sorrowful psalm written in a desert, with joy coming in the morning. Shalom Daniel, to you and your family.
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Hi Erin, your words mean a lot to me, thank you for the most uplifting comment. ☺Shalom
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Your welcome Daniel, your words are wonderful, as in the end they speak of healing. 🙂
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“Above me whispers a voice, I am the same, in all silence, I am the same, safe and sound still here today! Still here today!” My favorite and I am so happy it ended this way. Blessings your way Daniel. ❤
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Thank you Karen, I am happy it ended this way too. Thank you as always for reading and your lovely comment.
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Happy endings are always the best! 🙂
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When you write of love it is sometimes filled with the most personal messages of hope through pain. This was heart wrenching yet wonderful.
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Hi Taria, thank you, for your comment, I am happy the message of hope comes through. Wishing you a wonderful rest of your week.
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Thank you Daniel, have a wonderful weekend.
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Sobering, but well written as always, wishing you and your family the very best!
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Thank’you for your kind thoughts and also for reading and commenting.
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Anytime, you have a beautiful gift, it’s a pleasure to read your work.
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The spectrum, and it’s demons are a terrible place. My own son has dealt with them for the majority of his life. Thank you for this, we are not alone! ❤ 🙂
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Your comment meant a lot to me Brittany, thank you so much for it. As you know from your own experiences it is easy to feel a sense of alone-less in times of crisis within the special world that your family as well as mine live. Thank you for reminding me we are not alone. 🙂
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The ones we protect are worth it, and your words point to the very essence of what all children need in their lives, to feel “Safe and Sound”. Thank you once again for bringing not only the pain to real life in words but the solution.
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Thank you Daniel for reminding me why it is a covenant between me and my child (ren), and imperative that no matter what they will held within my arms “safe and sound”. Well written my friend, my prayers go with you and your family on this journey.
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Hi Wang, Thank you so much for your prayers, I am happy to hear you speak of holding your children close to you. Our finest gifts upon this journey. 🙂
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Right you are Daniel, I am happy to share this road with you and your family! 🙂
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Great company and all that! 🙂
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This is beautiful Daniel, your words moving with personal pain and emotion. Strong words! Wishing you and your son and wife well! ❤
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Thank you Anlosa, for your thoughts and wishes, also for reading and commenting. Wishing you a great rest of the week ahead.
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Someone, I believe Dennis mentioned Isaac in these comments. I ran across the following in an old Psychology Today, written by Renee Garfinkle, and immediately thought of your son. I hope this is not presumptuous. “Isaac was ideally suited for a life of contemplation. His materially and spiritually rich parents were able to give him the time, space, security as well as the faith with which to develop his own spiritual inclinations. Isaac lived in the desert, an environment preferred by later contemplatives of other faiths. Isaac never left the land that would become Israel, and was the only patriarch who cultivated the land. And then there is that matter of the names. Unlike his father and his son, whose personal development through action was reflected in their name changes, Isaac began and remained Isaac. He Will Laugh.” ❤
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This was a great quote Anlosa, thank you for sharing it.
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Your welcome!
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Daniel, I read through this piece several times. Each time I read through it, I saw your wife and you, with your son, your Isaac, whom you love, ready to sacrifice all! You have been to Moriah, and you have held steady, and Hashem has heard you. I also have heard you, and as your brother will stand as steady with you and your family. Thank you for sharing this with your readers Daniel. Shalom, Den
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Hi Dennis, Thank you brother, your words mean much to me, and I have thought about the exact reference you alluded to with Isaac many times over the last few days. I appreciate very much your standing with us, and as you know, anytime I will stand with you. Shalom, Daniel
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Thank you Daniel, for that vote of confidence, I think there are reasons why pathways are crossed, sometimes in the most unusual circumstances. Your standing at the altar with your family, provides many strength to go on. I have read up through your comment section many times, and I always see a great admiration as well as learning from many of the personal experiences of life you share. On a personal note, I have gained much from what you share. Your abilities are many, and Hashem has much in store for you in the coming days. Shalom, Den
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My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, this is truly beautiful and uplifting, in the end.
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Thank you Abigail for your kind words and I do appreciate your thoughts and prayers. Thank you also for reading and your comment.
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From your comment below it sounds as if life is getting back to normal for your Ryan. I am so happy for you and your family. Selfishly, I am awaiting your next post. 😉
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This is precious and stark in it’s realism and beauty. Thank you for sharing it. ❤
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Hi Destiny, thank you for your kind comment. I really appreciate you reading and commenting on my writing. Have a great evening.
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❤ this!
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Thank you Toni, I am happy you enjoyed it. 🙂
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Such beauty in pain, your words are full of despair and then hope. Shalom to you and your family! ❤
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Thank you, I sometimes wonder if despair is a necessary ingredient for hope. Thank you as always for your insightful comment. Shalom
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Your welcome but your the one with the insight, i’m just along for the ride. 😉
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Daniel, I am overcome by the trial of human suffering your son has endured, and I can assure you that I have been there on a personal level in my own life. My prayers are with you and your son and wife, and I know your own road less traveled is leading to a victory ahead. Best wishes, Bill
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Hi Bill, as always your comment lifts me up and gives me wonder at a forum where so many wonderful people exist. I hope someday you will share with me your own personal journey where I too can marvel at the road less traveled. Shalom my friend.
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I would like to talk to you someday Daniel, would be a fine moment to chat about life, the highs and lows. I welcome any opportunity to add something of value to someone’s life, and it brings me happiness if I have added any wisdom to yours at all. There have been many of your writings that I re-read to this day and meditate on, for they bring much wisdom to me. I am sincerely grateful to have found you on Word Press. Bill
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Powerful words Daniel, and a beautiful tribute to your family and the survival of the human spirit.
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Thank you Diana, I really appreciate you reading and your kind comment. Wishing you a great evening.
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Thank you Daniel, have a wonderful day! ❤
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I read and reread “The Covenant” a couple of times, thinking at first how fortunate to never have experienced such pain in my own life, and then feeling less than fortunate because there are people that know how to love so much. This was beautiful Daniel. I would say you and your family are incredibly blessed. ❤ ❤ ❤
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Hi Dani, I thank you for making me think differently about things with your own wise observation. I am grateful to you for it. Thank you as always for reading my stuff, and commenting.
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YW and it’s my pleasure to read your blog. I enjoy your writing very much. BTW most of what you write always makes me think differently! 🙂
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Daniel, I don’t think I can add much to what has already been said here, except to offer my own personal admiration, and prayers for you and your family. Your wife and son must be of the most resilient stock, as I know you are, by your many wondrous words you have blessed me with over the past couple of years. This is an incredible journey you are on!
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Thank you my friend, you as well have been a wise companion to me over the last two years. Thank you as well for your many comments and as always for reading my stuff. ☺
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Your welcome, your “stuff” as you always put it is worth reading, and it’s always been my pleasure to do so.
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Love and strength, brother; stored in the aether for dearest Ryan.
Infinite blessings to you all.
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Thank you my brother, I really appreciate your kind blessings and truly believe they are a part of the reason my son is doing much better these days. I also loved the video High C’s, great music. Shalom my brother. Daniel
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