The Covenant (Safe and Sound)

/ Daniel Swearingen


The angel entered covered up as all bad angels do. Disjointed thoughts in spider webs, so no one understood. Came he swiftly in the form of rapid movements and times, carrying life’s nothing’s, rhythms or what should really rhyme. Came he all of confusion, bringing violence in his name, possessed he the soul of the innocent to destroy and to maim. Oh, my son you are the victim of a cruel unusual joke, played upon your gentle feelings, your mind gone when you awoke. Came the fire of rapid synapses, over running neurons spokes, and your defenses fell a writhing, when the demon in pictures spoke. Showed upon the canvas of the inner child in you. A world that is burning, dragons, while reality spins from view. Human beings pulled apart, while monsters call your name, faster spinning thoughts they come, while the doctors diagnose blame.

Oh, my precious son, I’m helpless to mend your screams and cries, even Adonai, has left me, left me only here dried eyed. I look into your mother’s eyes as she holds you in your pain, the resolution repeated loud in safe there is a way. We repeat it through the path of broken thoughts and nightmare weaves. We keep you in our arms at night as the fear refuses to leave. The motion of a moving shadow seems to bring such terror, such cold. G_D my G_D you are so quiet, have you gone away, all we hear are platitudes from Facebook people who play their silly games. I thought by now, you’d come on down in roaring promised rage, delete the noun of madness sounds, and help us face this day.

Well my son, my precious son, the promise seems delayed, another day in Hade’s tomb, while madness has her way. Nothing really matters now, for what is lost was never found, we reach the place of no sound, but whispers we have to say, “safe and sound”, our love, “safe and sound”, today.

A dawn it comes as November’s sun, and your mother’s eyes look my way, the tears they pour like a river draining from a storm-filled lake. Somewhere in this broken house, within this finite place, a power of one is seeking how; in truth, we find the way. Safe and sound is the gift now found, from what we cannot pray. In this moment, quietness comes, and in the silence plays, oh my son, my precious son, you are okay. Above me whispers a voice, I am the same, in all silence, I am the same, safe and sound still here today! Still here today!

The angel took a quieter exit, covered, as all bad angels do! – 11.12.2017 – דָּנִיֵּאל

For My beautiful son who fulfills the covenant!

74 thoughts on “The Covenant (Safe and Sound)”

  1. Oh Daniel is this your sweet son you write of, how beautiful and heartbreaking, how victorious. I pray for you and your sweet wife, what a wonderful family you are! This was victory, Daniel. This was victory! ❤ ❤ ❤

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  3. Fabulous, Daniel… but I need to read again to understand fully your son and the delay.
    Nonetheless, your poetry delivers me, and shallowly I say… I saw a fabric black it was, though effervescent in every way. I think for Susan, it should/could play, with one colour.
    Still 2 Art Gowns away, what do you say?

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    • Hi Resa, Ryan is on the autism spectrum and at times his mind with it’s ever higher IQ see’s unbelievable horrors and madness. At times it is too much, but when he comes back to us, he is beautifully resurrected, reaching for places, those of us like myself so common only wish we could go. I will tell you more in a more discreet forum, IE: email 😉

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  9. “Above me whispers a voice, I am the same, in all silence, I am the same, safe and sound still here today! Still here today!” My favorite and I am so happy it ended this way. Blessings your way Daniel. ❤

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    • Your comment meant a lot to me Brittany, thank you so much for it. As you know from your own experiences it is easy to feel a sense of alone-less in times of crisis within the special world that your family as well as mine live. Thank you for reminding me we are not alone. 🙂

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      • The ones we protect are worth it, and your words point to the very essence of what all children need in their lives, to feel “Safe and Sound”. Thank you once again for bringing not only the pain to real life in words but the solution.

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  13. Thank you Daniel for reminding me why it is a covenant between me and my child (ren), and imperative that no matter what they will held within my arms “safe and sound”. Well written my friend, my prayers go with you and your family on this journey.

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      • Someone, I believe Dennis mentioned Isaac in these comments. I ran across the following in an old Psychology Today, written by Renee Garfinkle, and immediately thought of your son. I hope this is not presumptuous. “Isaac was ideally suited for a life of contemplation. His materially and spiritually rich parents were able to give him the time, space, security as well as the faith with which to develop his own spiritual inclinations. Isaac lived in the desert, an environment preferred by later contemplatives of other faiths. Isaac never left the land that would become Israel, and was the only patriarch who cultivated the land. And then there is that matter of the names. Unlike his father and his son, whose personal development through action was reflected in their name changes, Isaac began and remained Isaac. He Will Laugh.” ❤

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  15. Daniel, I read through this piece several times. Each time I read through it, I saw your wife and you, with your son, your Isaac, whom you love, ready to sacrifice all! You have been to Moriah, and you have held steady, and Hashem has heard you. I also have heard you, and as your brother will stand as steady with you and your family. Thank you for sharing this with your readers Daniel. Shalom, Den

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    • Hi Dennis, Thank you brother, your words mean much to me, and I have thought about the exact reference you alluded to with Isaac many times over the last few days. I appreciate very much your standing with us, and as you know, anytime I will stand with you. Shalom, Daniel

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      • Thank you Daniel, for that vote of confidence, I think there are reasons why pathways are crossed, sometimes in the most unusual circumstances. Your standing at the altar with your family, provides many strength to go on. I have read up through your comment section many times, and I always see a great admiration as well as learning from many of the personal experiences of life you share. On a personal note, I have gained much from what you share. Your abilities are many, and Hashem has much in store for you in the coming days. Shalom, Den

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  20. Daniel, I am overcome by the trial of human suffering your son has endured, and I can assure you that I have been there on a personal level in my own life. My prayers are with you and your son and wife, and I know your own road less traveled is leading to a victory ahead. Best wishes, Bill

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    • Hi Bill, as always your comment lifts me up and gives me wonder at a forum where so many wonderful people exist. I hope someday you will share with me your own personal journey where I too can marvel at the road less traveled. Shalom my friend.

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      • I would like to talk to you someday Daniel, would be a fine moment to chat about life, the highs and lows. I welcome any opportunity to add something of value to someone’s life, and it brings me happiness if I have added any wisdom to yours at all. There have been many of your writings that I re-read to this day and meditate on, for they bring much wisdom to me. I am sincerely grateful to have found you on Word Press. Bill

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  22. I read and reread “The Covenant” a couple of times, thinking at first how fortunate to never have experienced such pain in my own life, and then feeling less than fortunate because there are people that know how to love so much. This was beautiful Daniel. I would say you and your family are incredibly blessed. ❤ ❤ ❤

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  23. Daniel, I don’t think I can add much to what has already been said here, except to offer my own personal admiration, and prayers for you and your family. Your wife and son must be of the most resilient stock, as I know you are, by your many wondrous words you have blessed me with over the past couple of years. This is an incredible journey you are on!

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